Hey guys,
My mom was admitted to the hospital last Thursday due to a weird spot on her leg, found out it was a blood clot. The blood clot started from her groin to the middle of her calf on the left side. She has Factor V (definition:
Factor V Leiden increases the chance of clumps of blood (clots) developing, which can be life-threatening. Women with the disorder risk developing blood clots during pregnancy or when taking the hormone estrogen.) and she just had surgery due to finding thyroid tumors in her uterus. She had a hysterectomy to make sure the tumors would not come back. Anyways, this is now on her six week from her surgery. I called in to work due to high anxiety (shaking and constant crying), I drove an hour in okay weather, more worse roads than weather. Told work that my mother was in the hospital and they made a huge deal about it. Like really? If she was not by herself in the hospital, I would have come in but she wasn't with someone else and if the worst happens, I can't just leave work. I work at an adult family home by myself during the night. It wouldn't work. So I stayed with her, she yelled at me for it. I didn't care, I was crying and shaking. I couldn't lose my best friend while I was feeling helpless at work, I rather lose sleep and make sure she's okay than be at work, constantly checking my phone. More worried about her than work itself. I am thankful for the girls who took my shift that night, they were troopers.
She was released Friday from the hospital with better medications and told about warnings and she was okay to go home. Anxiety down and happiness took over. Tonight around 8:30-9PM, she called me, which is odd at a late time like this, she asked if I or her bf could give her a ride to the ER and one would stay with my little brother. I asked what was going on and she said she talked to the nurse hotline about tingling and hotness in her left leg with the blood clot, the nurse told her to go to the nearest ER ASAP and if she could, call 911. Well, 911 wouldn't do anything because the nearest ER is 30 minutes away from us. Her boyfriend drove her to the ER and when I got to my nana's house, people were home with my little brother. It's now about 9:30PM, I haven't heard anything quite yet on my mother but she is with someone so anxiety is about a 7/10. I had a few cigars to have that sense of breathing techniques and on the phone with my boyfriend. He's amazing btw, he has to get up at 3AM and he's waiting for my mom to call me back about what's going on.
So please keep my mom in your thoughts and prayers tonight and over the next few days. I hope it's nothing major and she can come home safe and sound. I can't lose my mother guys. She means everything to me thus the tattoos on my back for her.
A lighthouse to symbol how she is the light through my storms, helping me stir away before I crash. I wouldn't say that she s my rock because she doesn't just stand there to hold my hand, she has found her place in the world and she shows me the way through my storms. She's helping my ship find its island and its purpose.
A watercolor butterfly that is not filled in but she has the watercolor butterfly that is colored in. I will get pics for you guys later. But anyways, I am incomplete without her and together, we create something beautiful together. We need each other to understand the full picture, she may have found her colors for her butterfly but I need her to fill in my colors.
Anyways, sorry for the cheese of the tattoos. Thank you guys for reading. Hopefully my anxiety dies down tonight and I can get some sleep for work tomorrow.
Love you guys,
~Raven